Being a closet pervert is perfectly normal.

So it’s been a month, since I last blogged, and all I can say is OH SHIT. I didn’t want to let it slide like this but…surfing for porn takes up so much time. Sometimes I wonder if the people who visit this blog really do think that I’m a sick pervert, and to them I say…Sorta.

Here’s the deal. Deep down, most of us (I’m not saying everyone so calm down), tend to think about such things on a regular basis, but never act on those thoughts. Who hasn’t thought of a specific person and though naughty thoughts about them? I’m sure we’ve all done it once in a while. We all have fantasies in one form or other, right? Mine just happen to feature women dressed like the female characters from the X-men.

I’ve read other people’s blogs, and they’ve discussed this side of themselves with ease. They don’t mind sharing some of their “experiences” ;I, on the other hand, (don’t go there), am really shy and private about such things. I’ve never been the type to proclaim to everyone…I DID THAT. Then again, I’ve never been big on the bar scene, and I’m actually extremely shy in real life. It’s to the point where I’m actually fearful of saying anything. I figure, if I don’t say anything, they might think I’m an idiot, but if I do, they will know for sure.

As I’ve mentioned in the past, I’m going to a meet up in Chicago in August. I’m going to meet people I’ve teamed with in a game for years. The nice thing about this, is that I don’t have to be anything but myself. These people have known me for years. They know a lot about me, I’ve shared some details about my life and I’ve even posted my picture on a webpage for our Super Group, so we know what each of us looks like. I’m feeling any fear, because I don’t have to win anyone over. Then again, most of the people I’m going to meet are male. There will be some women, but their married. I’ve not planning on “finding a mate” there.

I had a few people who have recommended that I should try one of those web-dating services, but it’s hard to work up to something like that when you work two jobs, seven days a week, and I don’t always like what I see starting back at me in the mirror. I’m going to go into the self-image thing now, but this is something I need to remedy one day. Perhaps in a few years after I no longer need the second job. Being in debt also affects my self-image, and I’ll be debt free in less than 3 years. Then perhaps, I’ll be more confident in myself and go get me some (insert 70’s porno music here).

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